Well I sit here I know not why I just feel that I want to tell you a wee bit about my adventures into Shamanism and how it became for me a life changing experience.

I first like many people do heard of Shamanism many years ago when I first started on my truly awakened path, although at the time I thought eeekkkkk!!!! , no shamanism was about Witch Doctors and Voodoo, that was not for me, I wanted it all to be sweetness and light and happy endings if I could make it so, Shamanism seemed like the dark side and I didn't want to go there.

But gradually, things started to happen especially in dreamtime where I would be taken to the dark side to deal with things.

Then one night I found myself in the Inverness Spiritualist Church sitting there, never having been in a Spiritualist Church before I asked the question o.k., so I am here but why am I here as I could not seem to find a reason for being there yes it was nice and pleasant and I enjoyed the singing (I always enjoy the singing, I think I sound wonderful, others might not but I do and that is all that matters), LOL, other than that I could see no reason for being there, until the end I found I was looking at a bookstall they had I asked were the books for sale and the lady said yes they were, I hadn't even looked down but found myself putting my hand out and picked up this tiny little book "So You Want To Be A Shaman", errrrrr!!!!! no I don't think so, but the thing was I couldn't put the book down, I just knew it was for me, I paid for the book and went home having a cuppa I began to read this book and found it resonated with everything in me for I found that yes Shamanism uses herbs and potions etc., to do the work needed but the essence of it is all about "HEALING", Healing from the inside out, first of all healing yourself, looking at yourself and seeing the not so nice bits as well as the nice bits and recognising them and instead of saying oh!!!! no I don't have any bad bits saying yes I have these parts to me they are who I am, it is taking these parts and working with them to put them to your good use rather than letting them eat away at you.

It made me look at myself and see that although it was tough to admit I did from time to time suffer from jealousy, what it taught me was to look at why I was feeling jealous of someone or something and to turn it round, I actually started going up tp people whom I had perhaps shunned and apologised for the fact that I had shunned them as I was feeling jealous of them and could now look at why I felt that way, most of the time I found that these people hadn't a clue that I had been jealous of them just that I didn't speak to them, but would accept the apology some even laughed and said don't be silly and shook it off, although for me it did matter for me it made me say hey!!!! I am not all sweetness and light.

I feel that most of the time jealousy stems from insecurity, and that we are afraid that people will see out flaws that we wish to keep hidden, although if we face these flaws and I have done and now find that if someone says I am suffering from something I can say yes I have that flaw in my character but I am willing to admit to it, and it now no longer has a hold over me, as I have always said fear is our biggest weakness, if we can conquer fear we can conquer most things we are faced with.

I then went on from there to heal the Inner Child, I was taken into the space of two wonderful Shaman who helped me to develop in more ways than one, but I think it was the Inner Child work that did the most for me as I faced things that I thought I had dealt with and made peace with them, many people are afraid to face the Inner Child work to me I found it so liberating for it was like getting rid of old baggage and opening myself to new adventures.

Sorry didn't mean to ramble so much, but hey!!!! guess this means I am getting better

Love, light & blessings

Laughing BlossomXXX

Glad to see you are on the mend
Thanks for sharing that LB, it resonates with me at the moment. I will be thinking about that today.

Sal

Thank you LB
One small step, has led to so much more

You ramble away, we all benefit from it

glad to see you're getting better by the day .

JuniperSky x

LB, got time on your hands have you

Very interesting reading, there are definate areas i need to work on but although i know i attract the situations there still that element in me that wants to put the blam on them still - if you know what i mean

theres still that thought 'yeah but' when i try to reason with myself

ANyway my OSho cards pointed with no room for manouver towards being in the minute and not yesterday or tomorrow im also to drop my personality and realise who i am, really am - easy said -

Maybe i need some inner child work - any suggestions?

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Sulis, I must admit it was not all plain sailing as to have to admit that I could be bringing things to me was hard to admit that I could ever be jealous of another person was hard, as I always thought that once you opened up to Spirit you didn't feel jealousy or anger but I was wrong for here I was having to admit that I was feeling jealous of another human being, but once I really looked at why I was feeling like that it put things into perspective and I was able to say hey!!! this is daft to feel like this and now how can I change it, the thing is to change it not just to acknowledge it and leave it really change it, I mean why would you feel jealousy towards another being, do they have something you don't if it is on a Spiritual light then you just need to get off your butt (sorry), and work at it, no point sitting there moaning about it that is not going to make it appear, if you want something bad enough you have to work for it, I di go through the "Yeah but", and then decided that if I really wanted to do this work then that was what I had to do get off my Butt!!! and work at it.

By the way a friend of mine has the Osho Zen Cards, I love them I find them so enlightening no matter when you choose them.

Now as for Inner Child work Sue I would never try to do any of this type of work on your own as sometimes it can be quite traumatic depending on what is brought to light, I would always have someone who can hold your space and energy to keep you safe, also to help you go through things afterwards some people find that there are things that they thought they had dealt with a long time ago come up and need to be faced, although as in all this work you are never forced to go there if you feel it would be to traumatic at this point but hey!! as I say take that fear and face it head on and get rid of it, then it does not have a hold over you any longer.

Love, light & blessings

Laughing BlossomXXX