Hi hofS
Here's the reading I did in a bit more detail:
first question I asked was a simple past, present and future one - show me an archetype which "sums up" these areas of my life. I got:
Past:
CLOWN - Light attributes: fearlessly revealing emotion. Helping people laugh at absurdity and hypocrisy. Shadow attributes: using humour to wound raher than liberate. denial of emotional truth.
My interpretation: aspects of both the light and shadow ring true here - but the thing that really stood out was the picture of a jester type figure shedding tears behind a mask. the mask keeps coming to me again and again. I'm starting to understand how much I've been hiding behind lack of self-confidence over the past years - and how I've been acting out some of the roles in my life - denying the truth.
Present:
ATHLETE - Light attributes: dedication to transcending physical limits, including handicaps. Development of personal willpower and strength of spirit. shadow attributes: Misuse of athletic ability for selfish ends. false sense of invulnerability and entitlement.
My interpretation: Nothing here really rang true until my son saw the picture as he walked passed the table - a strongman - and said to me "is that card about Strength" (he's used to seeing the strength card in the tarot). as soon as he said it I understood. the strongman is holding up what looks like a rock or the world and around him swirls purply sky and stars. I finally feel at this time that I'm starting to get some control of my life - going with the punches - not fighting against them. and because of that, I feel more positive and feel more able to develop spiritually (the purply/starry sky).
future:
Healer - Light attributes: Passion to serve others by repairing the body, mind and spirit. ability to help transform pain into healing.
shadow attributes: taking advantage or those who need help. failing to care for oneself.
My interpretation: I am a fairly newly qualified reiki practitioner and intend to teach and give treatments as a full time occupation. I think the shadow attributes are warning me to think very carefully about how to price my services - as I've been struggling with this. also, I'm a card reader and want to offer these services specifically for healing - rather than purely oracle purposes - just haven't quite figured out how to phrase this yet.
I then asked for two cards which would help/hinder me with this future goal:
Help: child: Nature - Light attributes: friendships with animals. communication with nature spirits. shadow attributes: tendency to abuse animals, people and the environments.
My interpretation: animals are coming to me thick and fast at the moment - and I'm starting to get better at understanding their messages. also, we are in the process of doing some voluntary work for a rescue organisation - and I'm beginning to work with the froud fairy cards which I love - nature spirits. this card validates that the instincts I've been following are correct - thank goodness!
Hindrance: Vampire - Ligh attribute: Makes you aware that someone or something is draining your life force. shadow attributes: depleting others for your psychic survival. chronic somplaining and co-dependency.
My interpretation: apart from a chronic addiction to old Buffy the Vampire reruns (!) elements of both the light and dark ring true. My relationship with my husband - though solid and loving - can be very co-dependent at times - for both of us. and we've noticed that our moods effect each other in a matter of seconds. It's something that we definitely need to work on - so this is a push in the right direction.
Hope I haven't bored you too much - just thought I'd illustrate how useful I found these cards to use in this way. I believe firmly that anything can be used for divinitory purposes - it doesn't have to be specifically tarot. If you find answers in the clouds - develop that skill; if, like my husband, the pictures are in the flames of the firepit - practise with that. Some people will see answers in works of art hanging in a gallery - perfect! Just take notice of the signs and symbols around you - and use whatever rings true.